a lesson learned

It has been a stressful week for me. I was working for 4 straight days and the pediatric ward was full. We had two admissions of typhoid fever, an 11 year old admitted with dengue stage 3 and newborn with intracranial bleeding. It was the busiest working week for us at pedia ward. It was very tiring and when i get home from work, all i want to do is sleep. So on my 3rd day at work i was already in bad mood. I easily snapped out my moods and complain alot when medicines and syringes are not available.I was so mad at the parents for not buying the prescribed medicines. Plus our admissions kept coming. I was already tired and weary and i was beginning to lose my temper. An hour before my shift ends we had another admission. A 9 month old baby boy, who is underweight severely dehydrated. The baby had been vomiting for 4 days and had watery stools for 5 days. The parents were really poor. The clothes were tattered and torn with only 20 pesos on the pocket. They were from laguindingan and the father is a farmer. I felt pity and so sorry for them but i was too preoccupied in finishing my work on time that i got so irritated that i could not give the medicines prescribed immediately because they had not bought any of the meds. I said to myself " how can their child recover from their sickness if they fail to buy any of those medicines". Earlier today during my 7-3pm shift, i was in bad mood. No medincines, no syringes as always. I reprimanded each of the parents about the medicines. I was kinda rude and not sympathetic to them at all. But after lunch an incident happened that changed my moods. After lunch, i stood at the pedia ward station facing the glass window at the pediatric ward. My attention caught at this lady who was eating. Whe she saw me looking at her, she smiled and nod and offered me to eat. I just waved my hand to say it's ok. I was so ashamed for the way i acted towards her. The lady who invited me to eat was the mother of the 9 month old baby boy from laguindingan. Her gesture made me realize how judgmental i have been to them. She who had less still managed to invite me for lunch. Despite of not having the money and luxury in life, they managed to share and offer of what they have. I was so touched. With that simplle gesture a lesson was learned.

turning 30

This picture was taken last may 24, where i had a small belated birthday salo-salo with friends. As you get older, (yikes...sakit..huhu) birthday's seems like any other ordinary day. But what made this year a memorable birthday for me was that, i was able to spend it with my parents in iligan and my boyfriend was also there to celebrate it with me. He did all the cooking. I really appreciate all his effort to make me feel special on my birthday. I hope on my next birthday, we'll still be able to spend it together.

mama's sick

I haven't got the chance to update my blog. I have been so busy looking after mama. Last May 7, when i got home from my night duty, i was texted that mama was confined at Sanitarium Hospital in Iligan. I called my brother and asked him what happened. It was then i learned that mama had been vomiting the night before and she was complaining of body weakness and dizziness. I was worried. Mama is hypertensive and is a type 2 diabetic and she had mainatenance drugs but she hasn't been religiously taking them and has not been visiting her doctor for follow up check up. So immediately, we, together with my tita and tito left for iligan that morning. When we got there, my brother was in tears. He was really worried. When i saw my maman, she was weak and had right facial paralysis with right hemaperesis on her right side of the body.I was so numbed. I didn't know how to react. For the next 4 days, i had to watch over mama at the hospital and i had to miss my work. It was very tiring, stressful and i had sleepless nights coz i had to attend to mama's needs. My brother and i take turns in keeping an eye on mama while at the hospital. It was tough. My boyfriend came to iligan on his day off from work and he was really of great help to us on that day. My brother and i really needed an extra hand that day. As soon as mama's condition was stable, she was discharged from the hospital but her physical therapy will have to continue for the next 3 mos. We had to hire a caregiver who will attend to mama's needs when she's at home recovering. I visit mama as often as i can during my off days from work. When i look at mama now, much has changed. She's still weak and still couldn't move her right side making her unable to walk. We had to put her on diaper at night so it would not be difficult for her to travel from her room to the comfort room. I hope and pray that she regains her strength and that she will be able to respond well with her medications and her on going therapy.

my graveyard shift

I'm on my graveyard shift and thats from 11pm till 7am. It's not a busy shift but it's tiring coz i can't sleep comfortably on a chair and with the lights on. It seems that my body is screaming for a soft bed. hehe. When my shift ends, it's as if my body is floating in thin air and i couldn't wait to get home as fast as i can so i would be able to lie down in my bed and sleep. No matter how may hours i sleep in a day, my body is still weak and tired and when it's time for my shift i still get very sleepy. For two weeks i'll be on this shift and i just can't wait till it's over.

my top 3's

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
* Meling
* Ling
* Ann
THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR
LIFE:
* January 12
* March 2
* May 22
THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST
33 MINUTES:
* Chika sa phone with my Bf
* Eat
* Nag internet
THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
* Smile
* relax see a movie...heheh
* go out with friends and unwind
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS
* I will be here..(ehem)
* Together by NE-YO
* With you by Chris Brown
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN A
PERSON:
* Eyes
* Lips
* Face heheh
THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
* Ring
* Necklace
* Cellphone heheh
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
* text
* Surfing the net
* laag with uyab
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR
HOLIDAY:
* Bohol
* cebu
* Camiguin
THREE FAVORITE CARTOON
CHARACTERS:
* pooh
* Tom & Jerry
* piglet
THREE GIRL'S/BOY'S NAMES:
GIRLS:
* Chloe
* Simone
* Nicole
BOYS:
* Sam
* Sulpicio (joke..hehe)
* Matthew
THREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO:
* Ketkai
* SM
* Gaizano heheh
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FASTFOOD:
* Jollibee
* KFC
* mcdo
THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
* Coke
* Iced Tea
* Pineapple juice
THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
* Wallet
* Cellphone
* Face powder
THREE PERFUMES/COLOGNES:
* victoria secret
* Lacoste
* Burberry
THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
* blue
* Pink
* Green
THREE EVENTS YOU'RE LOOKING FORWARD TO:
* Monthsary, aniversary
* bday ni abay
* My bday