What will the stork bring me?

I went to my Ob-Gyne today for my routine check up. I gained 5 kilos from last months 2.5. I could feel that im heavier now. I can't stand sitting or standing for long hours. Sometimes i feel pressure on my back. The baby moves alot and i could feel his heartbeat. When the doctor saw me today, she smiled and told me that im almost there. The doctor said that my weight gain is just fine and that i should just stay away from too much sweets, carbohydrates and limit intake of soft drinks. BUMMER!..hehe. i crave for those things. Hard to resist. haha. Tomorrow i will be having my ulrtrasound and it's finally revelation time...Everyone in the family is excited to know what my baby's gender would be. I too am excited. But i feel that im carrying a baby boy although i wished for a baby girl. But it don't matter. I Just pray that my baby would be healthy and normal. Tomorrow's a big day for me and abay. It will be the first time we're going to meet the baby..We are both looking forward for tomorrow. Will it be a baby SAMUEL or a Baby CHLOE? Your guess is as good as mine...

reminiscing my nursing days...

i came across these pictures from my classmates friendster and as i look at each of the photos i just can't help but reminiscE... My nursing days were CRAZY HELL.. Tough, yet exciting. Tiring but rewarding. Stressful but fun...Now that Im already a registered nurse, i just cant help but wonder how i made it through nursing. As i look back, my nursing life wasn't that bad at all. I miss all the fun we had...

Just what went wrong?

a friend of mine has been ignoring me. It's really strange. All of a sudden she's been ignoring me. I dont know what i've done wrong nor i could never think of anything that i could have said or done to upset her. Usually we chat online everytime we bump into each other at YM. I said hello many times when she's online but i got no reply. At first i thought, she must be busy. So i left online messages but i got no response from her. Later this afternoon, we both were online. I asked her what i have done wrong and why she's ignoring me, but again my words fell on deaf ears. I do not know what to do. It pisses me off cause i really don't know why i get silent treatment from her. Was she mad because i didn't came to say goodbye to her before she left Philippines? sigh...i can't keep on guessing. I wish she'd tell me, so i would know...It saddends me...

missing my...

These pictures were taken few months ago. This was during the pediatric ward outing at Jasaan swimming pool. I could still remember how much fun we had that day. I never wanted to go with the outing because i hardly had any sleep coming from my graveyard shift but my colleagues wouldn't hear any of my excuses and were so persistent that it was hard not to give in. But im glad i went or i would have missed the fun. For 3 mos we bonded so well at the pediatric ward. We learned alot from each other and work at the ward was never that dull when you have a good relationship with each other.

When i got pregnant and got married i decided not to continue working. I never saw my friends at JRB hospital again. We text once in awhile but i thought i'd never miss them or my work. I guess i was wrong. I miss my duty schedule, the work pressures, charting and just being a nurse. Looking back, i was happy at my work and now im starting to miss work and yes, my friends i left behind at JRB.

the storm has passed

It's been quite awhile since my last post and a lot of things have changed in my life right now. After my secret has been revealed, everything just happened so fast. I am now married to the man i love. I got married on civil rites last july 30 and my family knows that i'm going to have a baby soon. I have never felt so happy in my life. Although i made a mistake, i am still thankful that the love and support of my family, relatives and friends is still there. I no longer live in the shadow now that my secret is out in the open. I can sleep well at night and im happy with everything that is going on in my life right now. Although, there are still quite a few of my relatives who are still up to now raising their eyebrows, i just hope they realize how happy and fulfilled i am. But im just glad and thankful that the storm has finally passed...

how long can one keep a secret?

We all have secrets don't we? I guess there are things we'd rather keep to ourselves. Right now i have a major secret. I've told a few of my close friends bout it. This secret of mine wont be kept secret for long. Eventually i will have to tell those persons who will be affected with this secret. It's hard to reveal but i have to. The truth will only set me free. Sometimes it's not healthy to hide something. You get bothered by it and it makes u feel guilty. Hard to sleep at night. I know i will be hurting alot of people when i reveal my secret and i just hope and pray that tis' shall pass...

a lesson learned

It has been a stressful week for me. I was working for 4 straight days and the pediatric ward was full. We had two admissions of typhoid fever, an 11 year old admitted with dengue stage 3 and newborn with intracranial bleeding. It was the busiest working week for us at pedia ward. It was very tiring and when i get home from work, all i want to do is sleep. So on my 3rd day at work i was already in bad mood. I easily snapped out my moods and complain alot when medicines and syringes are not available.I was so mad at the parents for not buying the prescribed medicines. Plus our admissions kept coming. I was already tired and weary and i was beginning to lose my temper. An hour before my shift ends we had another admission. A 9 month old baby boy, who is underweight severely dehydrated. The baby had been vomiting for 4 days and had watery stools for 5 days. The parents were really poor. The clothes were tattered and torn with only 20 pesos on the pocket. They were from laguindingan and the father is a farmer. I felt pity and so sorry for them but i was too preoccupied in finishing my work on time that i got so irritated that i could not give the medicines prescribed immediately because they had not bought any of the meds. I said to myself " how can their child recover from their sickness if they fail to buy any of those medicines". Earlier today during my 7-3pm shift, i was in bad mood. No medincines, no syringes as always. I reprimanded each of the parents about the medicines. I was kinda rude and not sympathetic to them at all. But after lunch an incident happened that changed my moods. After lunch, i stood at the pedia ward station facing the glass window at the pediatric ward. My attention caught at this lady who was eating. Whe she saw me looking at her, she smiled and nod and offered me to eat. I just waved my hand to say it's ok. I was so ashamed for the way i acted towards her. The lady who invited me to eat was the mother of the 9 month old baby boy from laguindingan. Her gesture made me realize how judgmental i have been to them. She who had less still managed to invite me for lunch. Despite of not having the money and luxury in life, they managed to share and offer of what they have. I was so touched. With that simplle gesture a lesson was learned.